Monday, March 7, 2016

“I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back, no turning back.”

These words from a familiar hymn usually come to my mind almost every day lately.  For me, to follow Jesus means to pray every day, listen to what Jesus might have to say to me.  I have faced many difficult situations, losing my mother, having knee surgery, losing my beloved almost 20 year old cat, and having eye surgery, with more surgeries to come.  I don’t know where I would be if I hadn’t decided to follow Jesus.  I am not always willing to listen to what Jesus may have to say, sometimes I think I can handle everything on my own. During this season of Lent, I have been using daily devotions from pamphlets and books, and also go online to read the daily meditations the SSJE Brothers have to offer.  All of these seem to have a common theme, growing and bearing fruit.  As I follow Jesus, I try to let seeds be planted.  On any given day, I might allow those seeds to be watered to help them grow, or I might hold back and not allow any water, but I feel that Jesus understands. Last year I was introduced to the Daily Examen, the way of prayer of St. Ignatius. This has been an extremely powerful prayer tool for me, each night I devote time to writing how I am thankful for the day just lived, review the day guided by the Holy Spirit, face my shortcomings, and look toward the day to come. Also, this Lent, I am helping to lead Stations of the Cross, giving me some new insights in what it means to follow Jesus.

—  Amy Inez