A Word from your Warden! |
I failed…… It didn’t happen all at once, so it took me a few days to realize that I had gone against some of my Lenten practices. The “no meat” thing was easy this year because I had done that before. The fasting from breakfast to dinner was much harder than I thought it would be. I was going strong in the beginning and then it became harder after a month. I modified by fasting from Noon to 3:00 o’clock in the afternoon. Then I gravitated to having a snack with tea while reading my passages and writing in my journal. Now that we have reached Holy week, I am now eating a light lunch, not reading my passages nor writing in my journal. I was somewhat disappointed in myself for a couple of days, but then realized that I wasn’t ready for all of the sacrifices that I put forth. I understood that I was just human. Yes, human. Initially, I thought if I accomplished these challenging practices, I would feel closer to Jesus. Instead, my failing enriched me and brought me a sense of intimacy with Him. I know that He died for us on the cross because we are human. Acknowledging previous Christian tenets has given me the strength to let go of my guilt and feel the love that Jesus has for me and for all of us. Actually, in hindsight, I succeeded……. I look forward to next year to see where my spiritual journey brings me in my practice choices for Lent. Blessing to all of you in this Easter season. |
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